The Teachings of Ajahn Lee Dhammadharo
I make it a practice to wander about during the dry season
every year. I do this because I feel that a monk who stays put in one monastery
is like a train sitting still at Hua Lampong station—and everyone knows the
worth of a train sitting still. So there’s no way I could stay in one place.
I’ll have to keep on the move all of my life, as long as I’m still ordained.
Some of my companions have criticized me for being this way,
and others have praised me, but I myself feel that it brings nothing but good.
I’ve learned about the land, events, customs, and religious practices in
different areas. In some places it may be that I’m more ignorant than the
people there; in other places and with other groups, it might be that I know more
than they, so there’s no way I can lose by traveling about. Even if I just sit
still in the forest, I gain by it. Wherever I find the people know less than I
do, I can be their teacher. In whatever groups I find that I know less than
they do, I’m willing to be their student. Either way I profit.
At the same time, living in the forest as I like to do has
given me a lot to think about.
1) It was a custom of the Buddha. He was born in the forest,
attained awakening in the forest, and totally entered nibbana in the forest—and
yet how was he at the same time able to bring his virtues right into the middle
of great cities, as when he spread his work to include King Bimbisara of
Rajagaha?
2) As I see it, it’s better to evade than to fight. As long
as I’m not superhuman, as long as my skin can’t ward off knives, bullets, and
spears, I’d better not live in the centers of human society. This is why I feel
it’s better to evade than to fight.
People who know how to evade have a saying: ‘To evade is
wings; to avoid is a tail.’ This means: A tiny chick, fresh out of the egg, if
it knows how to evade, won’t die. It will have a chance to grow feathers and
wings, and be able to survive on its own in the future. ‘To avoid is a tail:’
This refers the tail (rudder) of a boat. If the person holding the rudder knows
how to steer, he’ll be able to avoid stumps and sand bars. For the boat to
avoid running aground depends on the rudder. Because this is the way I see
things, I prefer living in the forest.
3) I’ve come to consider the principles of nature: It’s a
quiet place, where you can observe the influences of the environment. Wild
animals, for example, sleep differently from domesticated animals. This can be
a good lesson. Or take the wild rooster: Its eyes are quick, its tail feathers
sparse, its wings strong, and its call short. It can run fast and fly far. What
do these characteristics come from? I’ve made this a lesson for myself.
Domesticated roosters and wild roosters come from the same species, but the
domesticated rooster’s wings are weak, its call long, its tail feathers lush
and ungainly, its behavior different from that of the wild rooster. The wild
rooster is the way it is because it can’t afford to let down its guard. It
always has to be on the alert because danger is ever-present in the forest. If
the wild rooster went around acting like a domestic rooster, the cobras and
mongooses would make a meal of it in no time. So when it eats, sleeps, opens
and closes its eyes, the wild rooster has to be strong and resilient in order
to stay alive.
So it is with us. If we spend all our time wallowing around
in companionship, we’re like a knife or a hoe stuck down into the dirt: It’ll
rust easily. But if it’s constantly sharpened on a stone or a file, rust won’t
have a chance to take hold. Thus we should learn to be always on the alert.
This is why I like to stay in the forest. I benefit from it and learn many
lessons.
4) I’ve learned to reflect on the teachings that the Buddha
taught first to each newly ordained monk. They’re very thought-provoking. He
taught the Dhamma first, and then the Vinaya. He’d begin with the virtues of
the Buddha, Dhamma, and Sangha, followed by the five basic objects of
meditation: hair of the head, hair of the body, nails, teeth, and skin. Then he’d
give a sermon with four major points:
a) Make a practice of going out for alms. Be an asker, but
not a beggar. Be content with whatever you are given.
b) Live in a quiet place, such as an abandoned house, under
a projecting cliff face, in a cave. People have asked if the Buddha had any
reasons for this teaching, but I’ve always been convinced that if there were no
benefits to be gained from these places, he wouldn’t have recommended them.
Still, I wondered what the benefits were, which is why I’ve taken an interest
in this matter.
c) The Buddha taught monks to make robes from cloth that had
been thrown away, even to the point of wearing robes made from the cloth used
to wrap a corpse. This teaching made me reflect on death. What benefits could
come from wearing the cloth used to wrap a corpse? For a simple answer, think
for a moment about a corpse’s things: They don’t appeal to anyone. No one wants
them—and so they hold no dangers. In this point it’s easy enough to see that
the Buddha taught us not to take pride in our possessions.
d) The Buddha taught that we should use medicines near at
hand, such as medicinal plants pickled in urine.
These teachings of the Buddha, when I first heard them,
sparked my curiosity. Whether or not I would benefit from following them, there
was one thing I was sure of: that the Buddha was not the sort of person who
would hold blindly to anything, and that he would never teach anything without
good reason. So even if I wasn’t totally convinced of his teachings, I should at
least respect them. Or if I didn’t yet have confidence in my teacher’s ability,
I owed it to him and to the traditions of the Sangha to give his teachings a
try.
I was reminded of the words of Maha Kassapa, who asked to be
allowed to follow such ascetic practices as living in the forest, eating one
meal a day (going out for alms), and wearing robes made from thrown-away rags
all of his life. The Buddha questioned him: ‘You’ve already eradicated your
defilements. What is there left for you to strive for?’
Maha Kassapa answered, ‘I want to observe these practices,
not for my own sake, but for the sake of those yet to come. If I don’t follow
these practices, who will they be able to take as an example? If a person
teaches by example, the students will learn easily, just as when a person
teaches students how to read: If he has pictures to go along with the text, the
students will learn much more quickly. My observing these practices is the same
sort of thing.’
When I thought of these words, I felt sympathy for Maha
Kassapa, subjecting himself to all sorts of hardships. If you were to put it in
worldly terms, you could say that he was already a multimillionaire, deserving
a soft bed and fine food, but instead he slept and ate on the ground, and had
only coarse food to eat. Thinking of his example, I’d be ashamed to look for
nothing more than creature comforts. As for Maha Kassapa, he could have eaten
fine food and lived in a beautiful home with no danger of his heart’s being
defiled. But—and it’s not surprising—he was more concerned with benefiting
those who came after.
All of these things have given me food for thought ever
since I was first ordained.
Speaking of living in the forest, I’ve learned a lot of
unusual lessons there. Sometimes I’ve seen death close at hand and have learned
a lot of lessons—sometimes from seeing the behavior of animals, sometimes from
talking to people who live there.
Once there was an old man who told me of the time he had
gone with his wife to tap tree sap deep in a large forest. They happened to run
into a bear, and a fight ensued. The wife was able to get up a tree in time and
then called down to her husband, ‘If you can’t fight it off, lie down and play
dead. Don’t make a move.’
When her husband heard this, he came to his senses and so
fell back on the ground, lying absolutely still. Seeing this, the bear climbed
up astride him but then let go of him and simply stood looking at him. The old
man lay there on his back, meditating on the word, ‘buddho, buddho,’ and
thinking, ‘I’m not going to die. I’m not going to die.’ The bear pulled at his
legs and then at his head, and then used its nuzzle to push him left and right.
The old man kept his joints loose and didn’t react in any way. After the bear
had decided that the man was dead, it left. A moment or so later the man got up
and walked home with his wife. His head was all battered and bloody, but he
hadn’t died.
When he had finished telling me the story, he added, ‘That’s
the way forest animals have to be. If you can’t fight, you have to play dead.’
Hearing this, the thought occurred to me, ‘No one is
interested in a dead person. Because I live in the forest, I should play dead.
Whoever praises me or attacks me, I’ll have to be still—quiet in thought, word,
and deed—if I want to survive.’ This can also be a good reminder in the way of
the Dhamma: To free yourself from death, you have to play dead. This is a good
lesson in maranassati, keeping death in mind.
Another time, early one morning when I was staying in the
middle of a large forest, I took my followers out for alms. As we were going
through the forest, I heard a mother chicken cry, ‘Kataak! Kataak!’ Because she
didn’t fly away, I figured she probably had some baby chicks so I sent the boys
to run and look. This frightened the chicken and she flew away over the trees.
The boys saw a lot of baby chicks running around, but before they could catch
them, the chicks scurried into a large pile of fallen leaves. There they hid
themselves and lay absolutely still. The boys took a stick and stirred around
in the leaves, but the chicks didn’t move. They didn’t even make a peep.
Although the boys kept looking for a while, they couldn’t find even a single
chick. I knew that the chicks hadn’t gone anywhere. They had just pretended to
be fallen leaves. So as it turned out, of all those little tiny chicks, we couldn’t
catch a one.
Thinking about this, I was struck by their instincts for
self-preservation, and how clever they were: They simply kept themselves quiet
in a pile of fallen leaves. And so I made a comparison for myself: ‘When you’re
in the wilds, then if you can keep your mind still like the baby chicks, you’re
sure to be safe and to free yourself from dying.’ This was another good lesson.
In addition to the animals, there are other aspects of
nature—such as trees and vines— that can set you thinking. Take vines, for
instance. There are some that don’t turn in any direction but right. Observing
this, I’ve made it a lesson for myself. ‘If you’re going to take your mind to
the highest good, you’ll have to act like the vines: i.e., always to the right,
for the Buddha taught, “Kaya-kammam, vaca-kammam, mano-kammam
padakkhinam”—going to the right in thought, word, and deed. You’ll always have
to go right—by keeping yourself above the defilements that flare up and consume
the heart. Otherwise you’ll be no match even for a vine.’
Some kinds of trees make themselves quiet in ways we can
see: We say that they ‘sleep.’ At night, they fold up their leaves. If you go
lie under them, you’ll have a clear view of the stars in the nighttime sky. But
when day comes, they’ll spread out their leaves and give a dense shade. This is
a good lesson for the mind: When you sit in meditation, close only your eyes.
Keep your mind bright and alert, like a tree that closes its leaves and thus
doesn’t obstruct our view of the stars.
When you can think in this way, you see the value of living
in the forest. The mind becomes confident. Dhamma that you have studied—or even
that you haven’t—will make itself clear because nature is the teacher. It’s
like the sciences of the world, which every country has used to develop amazing
powers. None of their inventions or discoveries came out of a textbook. They
came because scientists studied the principles of nature, all of which appear
right here in the world. As for the Dhamma, it’s just like science: It exists
in nature. When I realized this, I no longer worried about studying the
scriptures and I was reminded of the Buddha and his disciples: They studied and
learned from the principles of nature. None of them followed a textbook.
For these reasons I’m willing to be ignorant when it comes
to texts and scriptures. Some kinds of trees sleep at night and are awake
during the day. Others sleep by day and are awake by night. The same is true of
forest animals.
Living in the forest, you also learn from the vapors that
each plant exudes. Some plants are good for your health; some are bad.
Sometimes, for example, when I’ve been feverish, I’ve gone to sit under certain
kinds of trees and my fever has disappeared. Sometimes when I’ve been feeling
well I’ve gone to sit under certain kinds of trees and the elements in my body
have become disturbed. Sometimes I’ve been hungry and thirsty, but as soon as I
go sit under certain kinds of trees, my hunger and thirst disappear. Learning
from trees in this way has caused me to think about the traditional doctors who
keep a statue of a hermit on their altars. Those hermits never studied medical
textbooks but were able to teach about medicines that can cure disease because
they had studied nature by training their minds the same way we do.
Similar lessons can be learned from water, earth, and air.
Realizing this, I’ve never gotten very excited about medicines that cure
disease because I feel that good medicines are everywhere. The important point
is whether or not we recognize them, and this depends on us.
In addition, there is another quality we need in order to
take care of ourselves: the power of the mind. If we are able to keep the mind
quiet, its ability to cure disease will be tens of times greater than that of
any medicine. This is called dhamma-osatha: the medicine of the Dhamma.
All in all, I can really see that I’ve gained from living in
forests and other quiet places in order to train the mind. One by one I’ve been
able to cut away my doubts about the Buddha’s teachings. And so, for this
reason, I’m willing to devote myself to the duties of meditation until there is
no more life left for me to live.
The gains that come from training the mind, if I were to
describe them in detail, would go on and on, but I’ll ask to finish this short
description here.
(The Autobiography of Phra Ajahn Lee Dhammadharo)
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