The Ovadapatimokkha (Part 2)
You haven’t yet developed the Dhamma or satipaññā to be
effective enough to destroy the kilesas. For this reason, the kilesas can still
infiltrate your investigation. Though you might try to investigate this body to
see it as asubha, or repulsive, as aniccaṁ, dukkhaṁ and anattā, the kilesas can
still prevent you from seeing it as such. All you can see is a human being, I,
and mine. You see this heap of filthiness or paṭikkūla, this living cemetery as
a living person, attractive, and delightful. This is how you see this body,
every piece, every organ. This is how you contradict the Dhamma and are
beguiled by the kilesas. It’s, therefore, absolutely vital to develop satipaññā
to direct your investigation. You have to investigate over and over again until
you see the truth. You have to see the truth of kesā, lomā, nakhā, dantā and
taco. When you truly see it, you’ll be overcome by your disillusion. This has
happened to me. When I got to see it clearly, I was so deeply moved by it that
tears started rolling down my cheeks. I couldn’t help thinking: ‘Why? Why? Why
didn’t I see this body like this before? I have been investigating this body
from the first day of my going forth, for the purpose of seeing the truth of
this body following the teaching of the Lord Buddha. But why didn’t I see this
before, and why today? It’s as if this body just appeared today although it has
always been with me for all these years. But why didn’t I get to see it until
today?’
I was really impressed by this realization. Whenever I
looked at any particular part of the body, paññā would spread over me like ink
spreading over blotting paper. This is how paññā will probe, then the truth
will appear, and I became profoundly moved. Paññā examines every aspect and
every organ of the body, both the top and the bottom part, as they are all the
same, impermanent and repulsive. So, how could I not be impressed? When I visualized
the body gradually decomposing, I could see this very clearly. It gradually
decomposes and dissolves. What will it look like when it’s dead? I had to keep
on visualizing until the body began to decompose and dissolve, leaving behind
just the skeleton. I became more impressed whilst the citta became very light,
as if it was about to fly. During the time that I was investigating, my heart
became deeply moved. That’s the way you’ll see the body. I saw it that way.
But you won’t see the body the same way every time you
investigate it. You’ll see it differently each time. But it’s still definitely
seeing the truth of the body. You also won’t be moved with the same intensity,
because each realization differs from one another. The emotional impact, therefore,
has to differ accordingly, depending on the nature of your investigation. This
is the way you should investigate with paññā. You have to keep a tight rein on
your investigation, not allowing it to stray from your object of investigation.
You can investigate the body as a body internally, externally, and both
internally and externally. For example, you can investigate any particular part
of the body, such as head-hair, body-hair, nail, teeth, or skin. This is
contemplating the body as a body. You can investigate another person’s body,
and then compare it with your body. The Lord Buddha had clearly elucidated in
the Satipaṭṭhāna Sutta or the discourse on the Four Foundations of Mindfulness,
that you should investigate both the internal and the external body for the
removal of the kilesas, taṇhā, āsava, avijjā and upādāna. This is the task of
the bhikkhu. This is how you should investigate.
You shouldn’t be concerned or worried about anything. Just
think that you’re alone with a heap of bones that you carry wherever you go,
whether you’re walking, sitting, sleeping, or discharging excrement. You’re
entirely consumed by your concern and worry for this body, because it’s its
nature to do so. The more you become attached to it, considering it to be I and
mine, the more heavy will your worry become to the point where you’ll not be
able to put forth your exertion. Whatever you do, you’ll become very tired and
weary, weak and exhausted, devoid of any mental strength. This is how to lose
to the kilesas. To become enlightened, the Lord Buddha and the sāvakas had to
traverse the road of the four noble truths, the road of dukkha and samudaya.
Let’s face it, dukkha is dukkha. Wherever dukkha appears, that’s where you have
to probe. You have to examine this dukkha and the object that is undergoing
dukkha. Separate them apart to see their true nature, because according to the
natural principle, dukkha-vedanā is a mental phenomenon. It isn’t the flesh,
the body, or the skin, the body-hair, the head-hair, the nails, or the teeth,
which are physical phenomena.
Even when dukkha is completely engulfing the body, the body
doesn’t know that it’s being afflicted with dukkha. It doesn’t know anything.
The dukkha that appears also doesn’t know dukkha or any particular part of the
body. None of them know anything. They merely appear because it’s their nature
to do so. You should investigate with paññā to see them as they are, then
you’ll be able to tell them apart. You should look at dukkha until you realize
its true nature. What gives rise to this dukkha, and where does this dukkha
appear? You should examine with paññā the object that’s being afflicted with
dukkha. You must not retreat, but must really concentrate on your investigation
of the bones that are being afflicted with dukkha, and are about to burst apart
with you feeling a lot of pain. What is really being afflicted with dukkha? Is
the bone really being afflicted with dukkha? In a dead person, is there any
dukkha? When the bones are being burnt, do they show any signs of pain, show
any signs of anxiety, or show any signs that they are being afflicted with
dukkha? Of course not!
The skin, flesh and bones are similar in nature and don’t
know what they are. It’s the citta that interprets and defines them and then
becomes deluded with its own interpretation and definition, by thinking that
they’re dukkha, that they’re me and mine. Once dukkha and the body become
entwined, the citta will be duped into shouldering a lot of dukkha. If you
investigate with paññā, you’ll see very clearly that dukkha is just a
phenomenon or sabhāva-dhamma, and the body is also a phenomenon. All of your
interpretations and definitions are the work of saññā that’s being manipulated
by the kilesas that use saññā to conjure up the notions that this or that object
is afflicted with dukkha, that they are this and that. You have to keep on
investigating. Is the citta dukkha? Are they the same thing?
You must now separate the citta from dukkha. The citta
merely knows. It’s not dukkha. Dukkha is just dukkha. Bones are just bones.
Dukkha is real, so is the citta, the one who knows dukkha. After you’ve
analyzed up until the point of seeing the truth clearly, then the dukkha and
the citta will separate. Then the dukkha won’t be magnified and get out of
hand. No matter how painful the body might be, it won’t afflict the citta,
because the citta now thoroughly understands the nature of dukkha, the nature
of the body, and the nature of the citta itself, due to the investigative power
of paññā that enables the citta to see them as they are. You can now live in
peace and in comfort. This is the way when one investigates with paññā.
When you get into a crisis, paññā will step in. You can’t
remain ignorant and helpless. When you’re up against the wall, you’ll have to
rely on yourself to develop satipaññā to get you to safety. This has already
happened to me. I’m telling you this from my own experience and not from
speculation. I said to myself: “You’re not forever ignorant or stupid. When
you’re in a crisis, you can become wise and smart, because you’ll be forced to
develop paññā to deal with the crisis, like when you’re driven into a corner by
dukkha.” Every part of my body seemed to burst apart. That was how severe the
dukkha was. But I kept on investigating with satipaññā until I understood the
nature of dukkha, the nature of the body, and the nature of the citta. Then the
dukkha wouldn’t intensify. Even if it does, like when you’re about to die, it
would merely be the dukkha of the body. The citta wouldn’t be affected in anyway;
it would remain calm and collected. You’ll see this very clearly.
So how can you have any qualms about dukkha or death.
Because dukkha, death and the citta—the one who knows sukha and dukkha— are all
real. Paññā is also real, they all are real, so they won’t disturb each
another. At the time of death when the dukkha becomes very severe and you can’t
stand it anymore, then you should just let it happen. You’ve been investigating
birth, ageing, illness, and death from the very first day of your practice. So
when death beckons, you shouldn’t run away from it if you practice for
enlightenment. After you’ve become enlightened, you won’t become deluded again.
What could you be deluded about, when they’re all real? You wouldn’t be bold or
fearful either. What is there to be bold about? What is there to fear? They are
all sammati or conventional reality. But if you’re not enlightened, you’ll
still be fearful and bold. When it’s time for you to be bold, you’ll be bold,
for this is the nature of paññā or magga, to be fearless in facing up to
dukkha-vedanā or pain. You’ll keep on fighting relentlessly until you die. When
you traverse the path for the cessation of dukkha, you have to be bold. But
after you’ve achieved your goal, after you’ve become enlightened then there
won’t be any fear or boldness left, because you’ve arrived at the realm of
normality, where everything is perfect, peaceful and natural, and where nothing
can cause it to increase or decrease, because it’s the absolute reality.
This is the way of investigating with paññā. You have to be
resourceful, and versatile. It will be helpful if you can come up with
different techniques every now and then. When you continually investigate,
satipaññā will be very powerful, and you’ll be able to probe the entire body,
as well as the entire world of saṁsāra. You’ll investigate everything,
internally and the externally until you become enlightened. Then you’ll become
a Lokavidū, a knower of the world, one who has truly realized his true nature,
as well as the true nature of the world, the true nature of saṁsāra, and the
true nature of sammati. What then is there to be deluded about? Such is the
power of paññā. You should therefore vigorously develop this enterprising
paññā, and must not remain complacent. You’re now living in a secluded and
quiet environment. I have tried my best to provide you with as much time as
possible for your practice, so that you can concentrate your sati, paññā,
saddhā and viriya on rescuing the heart, which is constantly calling for help, from
all the oppressive kilesas.
Whether you’re standing, sitting, walking, or lying down,
your hearts are constantly being oppressed and subjugated by the kilesas. You
must, therefore, help your hearts with your viriya, sati, paññā and saddhā, in
acquiring freedom, or at least to alleviate some of your dukkha. To alleviate
dukkha, you have to curtail samudaya, the creator of dukkha. If samudaya is not
curtailed, then your dukkha won’t be alleviated. Therefore, samudaya is the
chief culprit. In the Dhammacakkappavattana Sutta or the First Discourse, the
Lord Buddha pointed out the three aspects of samudaya namely, craving for
sensuality, craving for becoming, and craving for not-becoming. They are in
your hearts and not in the scriptures. The real craving for sensuality or
kāma-taṇhā is not in the scriptures, but in your hearts. The scriptures just
list the names of kāma-taṇhā, the kilesas and the Dhamma. You have to rely on
the Dhamma to guide you in your practice because it’s the only correct way. You
should first study and commit them to memory, and then apply them in your
practice of mental development.
You have to strive and exert yourselves to the utmost at all
times, day and night. If you’re not engaged in any physical activity, and your body
becomes very lethargic, then you should do a lot of walking meditation to
exercise your body. If you do a lot of sitting meditation, it can be very
painful to the various parts of your body, and the utilization of your body
postures is not in balance. This is not good for your health. You should
equally stand, walk, sit, and lie down. After you’ve got out of the sitting
position, you should then do walking meditation until you get really tired
before changing into another posture. This is the proper way of practicing
mental development. It’s also healthy for your body, and makes your body
function smoothly. During the three month period of vassa or the rains retreat,
you should intensify your practice. Don’t be concerned with anything. Your food
and living requisites have been plentifully supplied by the laity. You take up
the dhutanga or austere practices in order to consume and receive a small
amount to speed up your meditation practice. But you end up getting more than
you normally do. Look at the number of times that you have to empty your bowls
on your almsround!
That’s the lay devotees’ way of making merit by generously
supporting this monastery. But you shouldn’t take the lay supporters for
granted or get intimate with them. You should always be intimate with the
Dhamma and take the Dhamma as your refuge. As far as being hungry or full,
having plenty or not is concerned, this is just the nature of this world that
is full of aniccaṁ, dukkhaṁ and anattā. Nothing in this world is certain, but
you shouldn’t be concerned. You should consistently concentrate on your
practice. This is the correct way. As far as the dhutanga practice of not
accepting any food after piṇḍapāta or almsround is concerned, I have practiced
this ever since I began my teaching career to serve as an example for my
students to follow. You should really exert yourselves. Don’t waste your time
wondering about other people’s business. You should only look at your heart
that is constantly craving and producing a lot of samudaya. You should take control
and discipline your hearts with the various techniques of practice and paññā.
It can be tedious if you keep meditating with the same meditation subject. You
should try different techniques of satipaññā to turn your citta around. It’s
not good when your practice becomes dull. You should use paññā to come up with
new initiatives and ideas that will attract your interest. I myself have done
this before.
(Ajahn Maha Boowa “Forest Desanas”)
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